Bigg Boss 20 Exclusive: Isha Rikhi on her divorce, and controversial participation, says 'After everything I have suffered...'

Actress Isha Rikhi is all set to enter the Bigg Boss 20 house days after her divorce from rapper Badshah was announced While the development has naturally put the spotlight on her personal life Rikhi says her decision to participate in the reality show is rooted in her own choice and not in the opinions or expectations of othersIn an exclusive conversation with midday the actress opened up about her decision to enter the controversial reality show her apprehensions her approach to the game and why she believes her experiences have made her strongerIsha Rikhi on participating in Bigg Boss 20Rikhi revealed that she was initially unsure about participating in Bigg Boss ldquoFirst time it was no but then later on it changed to yes and then maybe it came to yes And I think I have made a good decisionrdquo she said For the actress entering the house is not about proving herself to anyone She believes having clarity about her own intentions will help her navigate the intense environment ldquoI dont actually take the pressure of others I just want my intention to be clear that if I am doing something or I am doing this show then why am I doing itrdquo she said Rikhi added ldquoIf it is clear then I think I will just play how I am not how people want me to So there is no pressurerdquoGiven the scrutiny that celebrities face particularly women the actress is aware that trolling and criticism are inevitable However she insists she isnt going to let it affect her ldquoIt will happen and honestly speaking its been happening with everyone And its part of our industry and its fine but I dont care about itrdquo she saidHer family meanwhile has been supportive of her decision Recalling her motherrsquos reaction Rikhi said ldquoMy mom was like think before you do it And if you are doing it then make sure you give your best Come back with the trophyrdquoInside the Bigg Boss house viewers will also get to see a more personal side of Rikhi While she enjoys dressing up she doesnt intend to enter the house with an elaborate wardrobe ldquoI will dress up because I like to get dressed up but it depends on my moodrdquo she said ldquoI know that I will carry outfits that I know I will wear 100 per cent No not 78 suitcasesrdquoDescribing her style she added ldquoI am more of a casual wear person Maybe baggy jeans with a bodysuit or maybe a long dress nice flowy one a mix of everythingrdquoIf fashion is something she enjoys cooking is certainly not her strength Rikhi candidly admitted ldquoCooking is not my cup of tea I feel that I wont be able to cook I dont know how to cook I am a Maggi personrdquoShe revealed that she can occasionally make aloo paratha and is willing to learn if the situation demands it ldquoI can make some things by watching YouTube But there is nothing there So I dont know how to cook I can make Maggi in two minutesrdquo she joked At the same time she insisted that she wont shy away from household responsibilities ldquoI am open to learn I am not a lazy person If I am given a task I will do my duty wellrdquo she saidUnlike several contestants who enter Bigg Boss with a carefully thoughtout strategy Rikhi says she has no game plan ldquoHonestly I dont have any game plan To be very honest everybody asks me the same questionrdquo she saidldquoI feel that I want to play how I am I am not going to follow any rule book If I have to do this I will win And if I do this I will win Everybody has their own opinion but I want to play according to my gut feelingrdquo she addedFor Rikhi the show is also an opportunity to understand herself better ldquoI want to be who I am In fact if I can be a better person which is very difficult Maybe my worst will be revealedrdquo she said adding that her experiences have prepared her for the challenges aheadldquoBut I think whatever I have experienced in life throughout my journey my career I feel that I will come out strongerrdquo she saidWhile she is confident about facing the emotional rollercoaster of the house Rikhi admits she is not completely fearless ldquoI have come to that stage where I know that you will cry you will break but again you have to stand uprdquo she said ldquoSo I am that person that even if something happens I will come back I wont give up I dont give up easily on anythingrdquoAs she prepares to face the cameras round the clock Rikhi acknowledges that certain situations inside the house do make her nervous ldquoBecause this is what I signed up forrdquo she said ldquoBut I am scared a little bit about certain situations I dont know how will I react how I will be able to cope up with difficult situationsrdquoOn her divorce and strugglesYet she remains confident that her past experiences especially her divorce with Badshah have given her the resilience required for the Bigg Boss house ldquoWhatever I have seen in life I feel that this wont be a big thing for me which I wont be able to handlerdquo she saidSpeaking about her childhood and background Rikhi added ldquoWhatever I have handled which is my background since my childhood I feel that I dont think that anything can break merdquoWith that mindset she promises viewers a contestant who will not easily bend under pressure ldquoWe are going to see a very strongheaded firm Isha inside the houserdquo she said